Silly Me!!

In reference to my last post, where I was not looking forward to a 90th birthday party, I forgot one important thing... WE ALL DRINK!!   Even my 90 year old aunt was pounding them back!! The party was so much fun!  We scared the other people away (you know, the dusty ones!) early in the evening and had the whole shuffle boarded-fake flower adorned rec center all to ourselves! Catching up with everyone was amazing, and I forgot how much I love my family. Events over the last two years, involving a very scandalous relationship, had estranged me from a lot of my family. No longer!! (well.. still the other side of the family. They're cowardly, lying, dickless assholes!.. but I digress..)  I came home and in my drunken stupor promptly told the "not it" cowards to SUCK IT!! We had fun!!

Now, unfortunately, it's back to regular life. No holildays, no parties.. But this year, I am determined to make parties wherever I go!! Last year, between February and May, I lost my job, ended said scandalous relationship (after lies, manipulation and cheating on his part, and we'd been inseparable for 40 years), I fought for 2 months but lost my puppy to cancer, lost all my money fighting said cancer, had surgery on a growth in my neck,  and lost my best friend (she was my other half since we were 12). I couldn't control any of that, but I learned I can control my reactions and my will.  So in light of the losses last year.. I will use the good china (we have good china??) I will burn the scented candles (carefully, on a plate.. i'm scared of fire) I will dance in the rain (or imagine doing that.. i hate being cold) and I will sing loudly!! (that one I will do.. cause it's fun, and it pisses everyone off) My circumstances suck. I'm on the verge of being bankrupt, my health is iffy right now... but to dwell on that has bad consequences. Instead I will dwell on the sunshine, the sound of laughter, the feel of clean sheets on a freshly washed body (no matter what that body looks like!) I will embrace my self, embrace my family for the good things and absolutely cherish every single friend I have. Last year tried to do me in.. NOT THIS YEAR!!  Join me in solidarity to flip the bird at bad Juju!! Moon the negative!! Fart in the general direction of bad circumstances!! We will unite in SMILES!!!